Biggest Fear

           
Dear God,

I know I have sinned, I’ll prove to you I can do fine
If only you’d give in, and give me a little more time.

I know I did wrong, when I told you I’d quit it all
But I just kept going on, doing drugs and drinking alcohol.

I was young and thought it was cool. I thought it was fun and now I’m the fool.

I have so many friends who care, I have so much to give
Death is my biggest fear, please Lord, let me live.

I haven’t got much time, they’re taking me away
Quick Lord, make up your mind, they are burying me today.

My drug habit will be through, I promise I will go straight
Lord don’t take me with you, please don’t say it’s too late.

Everyone is grieving, I’ve hurt them, can’t you see?
Why are they leaving? Tell me, what’s to become of me?

I guess my life is at it’s end, you didn’t answer my prayer
Tell me Lord, what happens? Death is my biggest fear.

*I wrote this poem in 1984 as a friend attended a funeral for a family member.  Even at age 14, I was pretty wise with my words. 

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